Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Case #5 Updated

Dh called me today during work and said the SW called him. I got really excited until he said that the bm chose another couple. On the bright side at least the SW called us this time and we did not have to wait to call her.

This one hit me really hard. I feel the sadness and disappointment of a bfn. The bm was due at the end of the school year which is perfect timing for me. I tried for years to have this happen on my own. Every year when it would line up I would get excited and then nothing happened. Today I got slapped in the face again.

We did  not get any calls for two months and then this was over in a flash. Who knows when the next chance will come along? I am getting really discouraged. I am losing my patience. I want to take all the money I have saved for this adoption and just run away to the Caribbean.

I wanted to give the sw a few months to see how many cases we got. Now I am starting to wonder how much I need to start advertising on my own. I didn't really want to do this for many reasons, but now I worry that I have to.

Friends and family are starting to get discouraged too bc they don't understand how this works. They are complaining to me that this is taking too long and that really annoys me. I am trying to keep my cool but I want to yell profanities at them.

Saturday, March 7, 2015

Case #5

January and February were very silent. We did not get any calls. Then in the first week of March we got a call. This BM is due early July.We agreed to show our profile. Now we are waiting to hear back on whether or not our profile gets selected to go to the next round. I will wait about two weeks before I contact the SW.

This was the first time that the due date was not in the same month as the call. While it is nice to have more time to prepare, there is also more time to wait before the baby is born and worry about the bm changing her mind and choosing  to parent.

Agency Stats for number of couples listed:

My state 29
---My local branch   3
---Western Branch    8
---Southern branch 18

The other two states combined 20