I cannot believe that it has been five years. Most people have stopped asking me about it. When I say it out loud I have mixed emotions. Sometimes I feel proud that I have lasted this long. Sometimes I am embarrassed that most people my age now have two and I still have none. Sometimes I am really mad that I waited so long to start TTC. I had to be the responsible one who waited until I had a house, job, was married. Sometimes I am very sad that I am 35 and have no hopes of ever having children.
I cannot believe that it has been 5 years without even one faint positive test. I have been to 4 doctors: obgyn, RE, Napro, and RI. I had 5 surgeries, and one procedure. I have spent tons of money on dr apts, medicines, supplements, etc. I have spent hours and hours searching the Internet for tests to take and treatments to try. I have stuck myself with countless needles. I have had tons of blood draws. We BD often and my DH likes to tell people that it is not for lack of trying. I watch my weight, eat right, and exercise.
All of my parts seem to be in working order. I have made huge improvements with my charts in the past two years. My charts are now perfect. My tebb has been gone for a while now. My p+7 numbers are great. I have even addressed blood clotting and other immune issues.
I am not sure how much more of this I can take. I have one more thing to try. I have spoken to my immune consultant about trying LDN. This is used in napro to treat endo, which I have. It is supposed to regulate the immune system. I have an apt with my napro dr in two weeks and I am going to ask him about it. Due to timing, I may have to start it next month.
I will give that a few months.Then unless something else new comes along. I think I have to give up.