My pms is kicking in. Last night I could not sleep due to hot flashes off and on with cold flashes.I have one large red swollen (look at me) zit right in the middle of my face.
I was at a meeting today when I overheard someone mention a surprise pg. This is her second child and she was commenting about how inconvenient it will be to be large over the summer. OMG I wanted to rip her hair out. I sat in the car thinking that I just can't do this anymore. I am getting so sick and tired of losing. Thankfully next week is my procedure. I am praying that they find something small enough to make me want to continue or large enough to get me to quit. No more grey areas.
There is part of me that wants to give up but there is another part that tells me try one more time or you will regret it. I got home and saw a comment from TCIE, it was nice and made me feel better. She mentioned also wanting to try everything possible before giving up. Our stories are similar except she has pcos and I have lufs.
I teach math. Today we reviewed customary capacity. Before school, I dug through the recycle bin to find a gallon, quart, pint, and cup sized container. Then I found some that were in between. We pretended it was like the price is right and they had to estimate the size of the mystery containers. They did a great job.
Tomorrow we are going over metric. This is basic bc it is only liter and militer. I rememebr when I was young seeing the eye dropper in the math text book and thinking is it the drop or the whole dropper? We never got to play with a real one to find out. Well since I have been taking so many shots over the past few years, I finally found the answer. One ML is not just one drop it is about 20. I saved my finished neupogen bottles and I got every last drop out. Then I got some food coloring and put back one ml back in since the bottle's capacity is only one ml. I thought it would be cool to show them how much one ml is in the bottle.
Then I found some unused syringes from when I tried pio shots last year. I was able to unscrew the needle. I cannot belive I ever let my dh stick me with that. The barrel makes a cool plunger and the ml are marked. I will let them use the syringe to try and fill up one liter. Of course after a few minutes they realize 1,000 ml will take all day. I was glad to be able to repurpose my syringes into math materials.